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About Me Member Wise Ass novondoiel18/Female/Australia Recent Activity Deviant for 4 Years
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i'm stupid for believing in you.

Mon Jun 19, 2006, 4:58 AM
i told jamie last week that i wanted he and i to have a chat soon. well, it has been a week and i havent said anything more about it. i keep trying to think of the right time for it and when i think i have one picked out, i freak out a little and postpone it. i havent actually set any dates with him, so he doesnt know about how freakin nervous i am. i'll only set a date when im absolutely sure i can do it, and do it well. i dont want to fuck it up. but now im not sure if a chat is the right way for me to do that. im fairly sure that i'll end up getting emotional and i'll forget to say things that are super important to me and it wont end up being what i wanted. he wont know what i want him to know. so maybe i'll write it in a letter instead. that way i can plan it, and i can read and re-read and re-do it as many times as i want until it is perfect.
i dont know what to do.
i dont feel like myself without him. how stupid is that. but, the truth is, im not myself without him. im not this person. i dont do this.
im so confused.

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  • Current Residence: Sunshine Coast
  • Interests: i like to listen to music, watch movies, lounge around with friends, hit up cal in style, and sleep.
  • Favourite movie: white oleander/anchorman/enemy at the gates.
  • Favourite band or musician: taking back sunday
  • Favourite genre of music: rock/indie.
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  • Favourite game: need for speed underground 2.
  • Favourite gaming platform: ps2/nintendo ds.
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  • Personal Quote: "swoit"
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:iconmyeong:
hey bra

im at the uni
i would leave you a myspace comment but myspace is being all gay and slow
...must be brisbane
im hella bored
ohhh and yeah, i dont want to go to my lecture...its gonna suck arse
it just occurred to me that i dont know how to leave this place...where is the exit? Do i go out the way i came in? ): this place sucks.

i have nooooo idea how to activate my id card so that i can put money on it and print stuff...maybe i wont have to do it anyway...fingers crossed

wow this comment is pretty damn long ay?
anywho

ciao

ps
i want to go home lol
i miss the sunny coast

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:iconnovondoiel:
haha. i forget what the sad face was for lol. tonight, i am disco bowling!

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maybe i need fantasy, a life of chasing butterflies.
:iconthedream-thedon:
:O!!!
On Friday night we had a poker night and the game hates me. Tony gave me a lot of his money so I could stay in, and Ange donated as well, and I still lost dismally.
But I left with two NZ 5c pieces and they have iguanas on them. And we put all the money together and we're going to buy a proper poker set with chips and everything so next time we'll play properly and maybe the game won't hate me anymore.

Yesterday Brian and Garry and I played lawn bowls for about two hours. I can't believe how much fun it is! Here I was thinking it was the sport for people who can't move much, but how wrong I was. I lost that too, I finished on 5 and Brian and Garry were on 11 or 12, but Brian meddled with the scoreboard and put me on 9, haha. And it was my first time and I still got 5 points! I was so happy.

And last night we played Taboo, which is the absolute best game in the world. Sooo funny when we play. With we being the family clan. I was with Ange and she said something so hilariously funny that I think I may have stopped breathing. I certainly had tears pouring down my face. A few people gave me looks of concern, haha.

I like my family sooooooo much.

It reminds me of schoolies when Jesse and I played Cranium and he got too excited and gouged a hole in my forehead with a lead pencil.

Hope disco bowling was merry. I don't like the new rule where you can't have bumpers. That makes me very sad inside and it also makes me really terrible at the bowling aspect.

I don't work till Thursday. THURSDAY. And I have to go to uni tomorrow and am suitably frightened.
:iconnovondoiel:
:c(

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maybe i need fantasy, a life of chasing butterflies.
:iconthedream-thedon:
:c(
Why be this face so sad like?
Amen good grammar.
Maybe working between Tim and David would cure what ails thee. It sure made my day.
:iconnovondoiel:
gah, i need some clothes.
it is so hot. i might go for a swim soon, it seems like a good idea.
when are you working this week? i am doing
tuesday: 8-12
wednesday: 2:30-6:30
saturday: 3-6
so yes.
you know how i told you jamie stayed til 12:30 the other night? well last night he stayed til 2. 2! yeah it was cool.

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maybe i need fantasy, a life of chasing butterflies.
:iconthedream-thedon:
Swimming is ALWAYS a good idea.
I am doing Tuesday 8.30 till 1.30 (see you there. I'll try and get Grant to put me next to you. He would, but Troy tends to get in the way of these things. Ooh you should try to sweet talk Grant/Troy too, ha)
Wednesday 10-1.15 (weirdest shift in the WORLD)
Friday 8-12.30
Ah Coles.

TWO O'CLOCK IN THE MORNING!! Golly! Haha. Remember, even if you're wearing a raincoat, you still get wet. Thank YOU guest speaker #36749 at Nambour Christian College.

I'm listening to Jimmy Eat World at the moment. I do love them.
:iconnovondoiel:
bianca's hair is fantastic.

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maybe i need fantasy, a life of chasing butterflies.
:iconthedream-thedon:
That is very true. She is fantastic too, as is DFO because I am now a lot poorer but possessing a lot more material possessions. With material in the most literal sense, meaning CLOTHES.

I need a massage.
:iconnovondoiel:
grant is probably the coolest service desk person ever. he is so cheery all the time. i like him and eryn.
jamie just left my house and it is 12:30am. AM! he got up to kiss me goodnight and things really escalated quickly. it got out of hand fast. haha it was funny though. "goodnight... ok maybe not..."

ps. if you are working tomorrow i will show you my hickey! i made him give me one. it is in a covered up spot though so it isnt a trashy hickey. hehehaw.

pps. have you ever wondered what a chicken in a bikini might look like?

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maybe i need fantasy, a life of chasing butterflies.

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