i dont know what to do.
i dont feel like myself without him. how stupid is that. but, the truth is, im not myself without him. im not this person. i dont do this.
im so confused.


jugularGot up that morning from my bed Thinking I can’t grasp reality Looked back at the sheets where I’d bled And knew your cold brutality Felt nothing but still I fled Just as a formality,jugular
What does it matter when you where still fed Looking at me through you spectacles of morality Dissecting, then fastening your opinions with invisible thread Everything done Theatricality
Though careful where to tread I was till a self proclaimed Mortality Nothing I could do would hide the red Not with my physicality What are you worried I might spread Void of person
im at the uni
i would leave you a myspace comment but myspace is being all gay and slow
...must be brisbane
im hella bored
ohhh and yeah, i dont want to go to my lecture...its gonna suck arse
it just occurred to me that i dont know how to leave this place...where is the exit? Do i go out the way i came in? ): this place sucks.
i have nooooo idea how to activate my id card so that i can put money on it and print stuff...maybe i wont have to do it anyway...fingers crossed
wow this comment is pretty damn long ay?
anywho
ciao
ps
i want to go home lol
i miss the sunny coast
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Meet Wrong - Bunny, my favourite bunny in the whole wide world...
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maybe i need fantasy, a life of chasing butterflies.
On Friday night we had a poker night and the game hates me. Tony gave me a lot of his money so I could stay in, and Ange donated as well, and I still lost dismally.
But I left with two NZ 5c pieces and they have iguanas on them. And we put all the money together and we're going to buy a proper poker set with chips and everything so next time we'll play properly and maybe the game won't hate me anymore.
Yesterday Brian and Garry and I played lawn bowls for about two hours. I can't believe how much fun it is! Here I was thinking it was the sport for people who can't move much, but how wrong I was. I lost that too, I finished on 5 and Brian and Garry were on 11 or 12, but Brian meddled with the scoreboard and put me on 9, haha. And it was my first time and I still got 5 points! I was so happy.
And last night we played Taboo, which is the absolute best game in the world. Sooo funny when we play. With we being the family clan. I was with Ange and she said something so hilariously funny that I think I may have stopped breathing. I certainly had tears pouring down my face. A few people gave me looks of concern, haha.
I like my family sooooooo much.
It reminds me of schoolies when Jesse and I played Cranium and he got too excited and gouged a hole in my forehead with a lead pencil.
Hope disco bowling was merry. I don't like the new rule where you can't have bumpers. That makes me very sad inside and it also makes me really terrible at the bowling aspect.
I don't work till Thursday. THURSDAY. And I have to go to uni tomorrow and am suitably frightened.
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maybe i need fantasy, a life of chasing butterflies.
Why be this face so sad like?
Amen good grammar.
Maybe working between Tim and David would cure what ails thee. It sure made my day.
it is so hot. i might go for a swim soon, it seems like a good idea.
when are you working this week? i am doing
tuesday: 8-12
wednesday: 2:30-6:30
saturday: 3-6
so yes.
you know how i told you jamie stayed til 12:30 the other night? well last night he stayed til 2. 2! yeah it was cool.
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maybe i need fantasy, a life of chasing butterflies.
I am doing Tuesday 8.30 till 1.30 (see you there. I'll try and get Grant to put me next to you. He would, but Troy tends to get in the way of these things. Ooh you should try to sweet talk Grant/Troy too, ha)
Wednesday 10-1.15 (weirdest shift in the WORLD)
Friday 8-12.30
Ah Coles.
TWO O'CLOCK IN THE MORNING!! Golly! Haha. Remember, even if you're wearing a raincoat, you still get wet. Thank YOU guest speaker #36749 at Nambour Christian College.
I'm listening to Jimmy Eat World at the moment. I do love them.
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maybe i need fantasy, a life of chasing butterflies.
I need a massage.
jamie just left my house and it is 12:30am. AM! he got up to kiss me goodnight and things really escalated quickly. it got out of hand fast. haha it was funny though. "goodnight... ok maybe not..."
ps. if you are working tomorrow i will show you my hickey! i made him give me one. it is in a covered up spot though so it isnt a trashy hickey. hehehaw.
pps. have you ever wondered what a chicken in a bikini might look like?
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maybe i need fantasy, a life of chasing butterflies.
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